One year

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Suddenly feel like want to share something personal here.
But first , I have to apologize for my broken english.

I have thought for several times about myself and what I wanted to be before graduate.
Initially, I really planned to work in archi firm for one year to gain experience.
But, finally I decided to venture in education.

It is almost one year since I graduated , time really fly fast and this is what it terrified me the most.
Look back what happen after graduation till now, I really feel emptiness in life.

Sometimes I really wonder do I make the right decision for my future.
Or do I have a future indeed?

I am not a type of person who need to survive with high ambitous carrer.
I just hope to have some satisfaction and simple happiness in life.

but, these few months I met a lot of people from architecture field.
I feel more n more not confident even to socialize with them.
Maybe just the personal feelings who always wanted to encourage me to runs and escape.

One year lo................................
so fast........................................
Do I do something right before?
A lot of quarrels and disappointment in life, making me more and more speechless each day.

If you know me one year before, try to compare with me one year after.
I not sure how much I have changed, but the most obvious thing changed in me is I become more and more unable to talk to people.
I lost the abilities to give spontanteous respond to people in conversation.
This is also the reasons why I prefer to keep silent all the times.

only one year
so disappointed
I feel there is no muchbond left between you all and me.
if one more year to pass, what will be left between us?

No matter where and how..................
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6 comments:

huanhuan said...

buddy..why so down spirit??
Recommend you to read this book --The Secret
Everytime i read ur blog i can feel ur passion in architecture!
Need not to blame of the past!
I have learn a sentences from a movie---> yesterday is past,tomorow is mistery TODAy is a gift..that's why it's called present...
There's is no wrong choices and blaming blaming as if u are still young now..
Belief in Law of attractions...
U must read the book.....^-^

咖菲猫 said...

thanks, huan huan buddy

a z i e said...

LOL de phrase are from kungfu panda movie.haha...nice quote tho.
anyways, gambateh miss chai!! hehe XD XD

咖菲猫 said...

what phrase?

Anonymous said...

I have the same confusion. Graduation from Campus and choose a way that seems just a compromise to what I thought before. This kind of depression not appearing in my mind once.

I add your msn since I like architecture 2. If you don't mind, add me.

咖菲猫 said...

hai, so happy to see that actually someone really read my blog.
Thanks a lot ya.
I feel great to add you. hope v can chat sometime.

:)